Mother's day melt down...I don't think so !!!

Today is mother's day. What I thought might be a mentaly challenging day actually wasn't to my surprise. Waking this morning I was dreading the horror reminder that I am not a mother and that my baby boy should have been 4 months old. So I rolled out of bed and put my footprint neckles on with his birthstone and felt him close to my heart. I went to church and sang songs . Just being in the Lords house made me feel fulfilling and at ease. I said to God this is exactly were I need to be today and thank you. It was so uplifiting and I felt him fill me with his comfort. After church a dear friend of mine joined us for breakfast with my mother ,sister,husband, Aunt and my 3 niece's.  After a wonderful brunch my nieces came over and we played together and we all had dinner.it was so comforting to feel and see God work in my life today. The way he feels those empty spots in our hearts . I am so thankful he gave me family and friends to spend the day with especially when I  was secretly dreading it. So instead of being filled with sorrow and self  pitty he lifted me up and filled my heart with gladness.

Painting Possibilities.....

This weekend we finally painted the nursery. As our annual homestudy approaches we wanted to have the room painted. Painting the room gives me so much excitement and can't wait to see what the Lord is going to do in our lives. I am so thankful God has opend doors I thought were closed. Our wait might be long until we are family, but I know we are using this time to prepare for what we pray for and to grow closer to him.